Full-Blown Pain: My Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.
The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches often begin with severe pain behind one eye that lasts for several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more often affected. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, severe agony focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.
Ancient healing texts propose unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.
In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.
Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.
But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.
The official guidance need revising to reflect a